Meet Me at the Corner of Now and Not Now
There was nothing in the noggin…
A few minutes after I awoke, I was in the perfect zen state – no thought, no breath, no life, no nothing… (nothing)
Bewildered, I was pre-thinking, post-dreaming,
And in a moment, it all disappeared.
I started thinking.
I tried remembering my dreams.
I tried to think about the day ahead.
I tried to think.
It was that moment that destroyed my morning zen, and I never realized it.
The empty brain was fleeting.
The floating head was grounded.
There will be no nirvana with my coffee.
Nothing but the pain push-pull of my gray matter waging battle against itself.
All. Day. Long.
But I had hope – a slim hope, but one nonetheless –
There would be a chance for the same moment tomorrow…
I only hope I don’t recognize it!